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Why do my parents think that they can control my life???!!! sick of it! apparently now i cannot go to my friends house party.....it was just a simple NO! i was like why the hell not! and they still didnt say anything! well bugger them im going there not going to stop me im nearly 20 for gods sake!

Well what can i say again last four days been amazing :) spent all my time with my wonderful boyfriend. He went to shambala festival this morning so im not going to see him for a whole 5 days :( going to miss him sooooo much *sighs* oooo and i dyed him hair for him aswell!!! its all multicoloured its looks god damn amazing hehe! The festival he has gone to is as big hippy thing :P its all about peace, love and drugs lol! Yes not really my thing....hence why im not going :( but maybe i want to just so i can be with him, but i hope the 5 days goes pretty quickly. Lets just hope hehe! :)

Well apart from that im going out tonight hopefully with my ex Tom, havent seen him for a while so i thought it be nice. Rob my boyfriend wasnt to impressed he was like your going to see your ex on the day i leave for shambala.....i was like come on you know i never would and its the gods honest truth. I would never be something i hate....yes i hate CHEATERS! and LIARS!!!!

Ok another really low rate by someone and no reason why O_o thats the second one in two days.....is there something wrong with my profile eeek :(

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vampchica4
20:17 Aug 23 2009

Ill take a look for ya

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Damn now i feel awful i got myself in a state :( after that phone call ugh......i wanna go curl up and just calm myself down :(

Had a fun morning :) was trying to teach my little sister to skateboard haha! Ever since i fractured my elbow a few months ago i havent been on a board until today. Well good news is i didnt fracture anything today haha! Well i only fractured it last time because i was messing around on the half pipe on the skatepark and well i went for a bit to much and i had to bail.....trust me falling on a concrete floor on your arm really bloody hurts.....i paid for it lol!

Dont you just hate people who come give you a really low rating for no reason? damn this dude didnt even leave a comment saying why? O_o i sent him a message but what good it will do lol! my profile doesnt look that bad haha! ah well i wont mention names.....me dont like drama :(

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Trikki
22:40 Aug 21 2009

I don't blame you. NOBODY is worth ANY amount of drama ;)

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MorbidAngels15
22:46 Aug 21 2009

indeedly :) me VOTE drama free hehe! ^_^

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Just been reading about all the different types of illegal drugs in the world....hell there is alot and i read everyone. There is a reason for this yes i just wanted to know what certain drugs do to you and the long term effects, Some of the drugs i never even heard of O_o

But yea my current boyfriend hes taken quite a few of the drugs i just read about, dont know what he sees in it to be honest why do people take drugs? hell some of the stuff sounds awful especially if you have a bad trips.....Like next friday hes going to this festival called shambala, its all about peace, love and drug taking! I just guna be worried you know that when he takes something he might cheat :( and like he said if he takes acid he wont remember anything......i shouldnt be writing this in my journal but need somewhere to vent and plus the people who read this i trust and wont judge me like others will. I have never done any other drug in my life apart from smoked weed....i mean come on who hasnt sat there and smoked a joint or had a bong with there friends. Its nice and relaxing gives a chance for you to kick back etc........

I could never take anything else.....people have offered but i have always said no, hence why i wonder why there are those people out there who carnt say no and love to go on this trips? I have asked my man why he does it he couldnt really give me a answer......basically he was like i only have one life why waste it being boring and not going out to partys and taking drugs, isnt there more to life? maybe im seriously considering my relationship with him, maybe this is why im writing this!

Hes a wonderful guy.....hes right with like everything else apart from the drug taking.....thats the only downside about everything. Theres always gotta be one bad things right? *sighs*

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vampchica4
00:44 Aug 22 2009

Well, Yes, hes only got one life. If he messes it up- he has no do- over

But thats just my opinion

He does sound like a nice guy, though

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Had my hair cut this morning! looks way better than it did hehe! had a restyle and stuff :) but now the big question is shall i stick with my red hair? or dye it back to black? either way it needs redying the red has faded pretty bad lol! so what ya think?

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DarkWolfman
13:33 Aug 21 2009

The red looks good but if it faded then go back to black

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MorbidAngels15
13:37 Aug 21 2009

yea takes alot to keep the red i guess. But my boyfriend was like dont dye it black because he says he thinks i look better with red hair....plus he has a thing for red heads lol! so erm....i dunno :-s

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xAXEWOMANx
13:51 Aug 21 2009

hehe

i was looking at hair colour today

the live collection for darker hair

think i will try one tomorrow

you will look great whatever colour you decide ;)

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Trikki
14:04 Aug 21 2009

well I think it looks awesome :)

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MorbidAngels15
14:18 Aug 21 2009

Thankyou :)

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Dont you hate it when certain songs remind you of people you use to love or care for? or people who arnt around anymore :( makes you take a step back for a moment and think about them once more and cherish the things you had with them........happened to me earlier :(

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TruthHurts
00:16 Aug 17 2009

Its sucks especially when the songs and/or places remind you of a person you loved but didn't love you back, even when they lied and said they did.

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MorbidAngels15
10:57 Aug 17 2009

indeed hun i agree with you on that one :( that does suck so much......

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Just like raindrops.....you feel so good upon my lips, just like raindrops.....Even though you're a million miles away :) *sings* love that song hehe!

Anyway........

Last few days been a complete blast :) getting high and drunk....wow its been pretty intense didnt know my body could handle so much! but i really need to slow down to be honest! this lifestyle i have got now with my boyfriend Rob is taking it out on me.....need to slow down, hes use to doing it all dont know how i keeps going lol! ^_^

I was thinking last night about all the people in my life who have come and gone so quickly....got me thinking about a certain someone in particular :(

This certain someone without mentioning a name had such a big impact on my life, i know it might be crazy to say that but damn its so true. I was planning my future to be with him, i felt so strong but i went and fucked it up how could i have been so stupid? :( i sometimes dream about what it would have been like if i made it over there.....sometimes the dream is the opposite where he comes all the way here to see me, and everytime its a suprise. Its breath taking everytime i wake up and think WOW! how i wish that would actually happen you know? becasue deep down in my heart i think i still love him O_o but i cannot tell him......there no point i know hes single and stuff but meh im kidding myself it wouldnt work i fucked it all up last time so i most likely would do that again :( plus there the fact there im actually seeing someone at this time too.......

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placidchaos
18:35 Aug 11 2009

I've been there. It does suck.

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newlyawaken
20:51 Aug 11 2009

I know what you mean sis it bloody sucks!

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Well yes i have swine flu! :( said i need anti-virals so my parents are going to the pharmacy to get me some tomorrow........i have been feeling worse day by day thought it be best if i fif that test and got the number and stuff. Think i might crawl into bed soon because im like knackered....and well i feel drained and dizzy and stuff =[ the worst thing is i keep burning up......ugh :(

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newlyawaken
19:31 Aug 10 2009

aww hun *hugs* you should sleep and get better

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Xzavier
19:34 Aug 10 2009

Not sure where you live but about 1 million people in the US have gotten it. Take the antibiotics (all of them even if you feel better and have some left, take them) and get some Tylenol for your fever. Lots of rest and water (not coke) and you should be fine.



Good luck!

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crowgirl
20:38 Aug 10 2009

I know how you feel, I had it too. It sucks. But the tamiflu is amazing and works really well. You'll be better in no time at all. *hug*

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MorbidAngels15
21:32 Aug 10 2009

Thanks hun *hugs* :)

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Well im back online :) parents finally gave my net back dont know how long for tho.....But its good to be back on vr damn i missed being on here soooo much! Missed alot of people on here too.....you know who you all are :)

The last few days been pretty good tho :) think i might do some profile and portfolio changes......think i need it to be different somehow ^_^ Depends if i can be bothered tho XD we shall see i guess hehe!

Well sorry i havent been online :( my parents have taken my internet off me and i have no idea when i will get it back. =[

The only reason im online now is because im at my boyfriends using his laptop. Meh things aint getting any better at home.....so yea you can kinda say im screwed *Sighs* giving up on everything to be honest

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xAXEWOMANx
15:12 Aug 07 2009

Oh dear that is shit hun :(

and who is the lucky man hehe

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Well just about had enough of my parents....mainly my mum! Had a big bust up this morning and she was like go down to the housing place and tell them you homeless tomorrow! I was like wow take it to far or what? meh....maybe it is best if i just move out its been coming along time! been chucked out quite a few times!

There always trying to control me tho....oh i carnt go out to this place or i carnt see this person! im 19 for god sake! all i want is abit of freedom to like have a life! but meh they dont get that there so harsh as hell!

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XipeToltec
16:24 Aug 02 2009

Better to take control of your own life- get your own place.

When you are in your parents house they pay the bills and have a right to see things done as they wish.

It takes some work to have your own place and life. Your age doesn't get you anything. You are not a grown up until you are doing for yourself.

They know that.

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placidchaos
19:03 Aug 02 2009

Wow, sounds exactly like what I was going through when I was 19. Just a few years ago. It sucks.

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